Sweetly lover won't you let me know?

Communication is vital. Reality hits you in the face hard sometimes and if you don't know how to tend to the wounds properly then you'll be left hopeless and confused "how did the water get so cold?" And these things get repeated, round and round like a circle. It can do just what you want. Let's nurse this to health how it should be. We have the resources, the fundamentals to make this right. It can do just what you want, so let the water cool down the burns. Let the words ease and soothe you. You can say what you will and do what you want, but the waves of life that hit hard can't break these feelings like they're not. So sweetly won't you let me know, why did you let it get so cold?

Mix and Match

Everything in life is spread out like a memory match game and you have to find the pairs that match. You have to put the puzzle pieces together. Well, I suppose you don't have to, but your life would make a lot more sense if you did. "For everything to be matched, you have to mix it," my sister would say as I joined her for a game of memory match. And that can be applied to life as well. No one ever finds their match right next to them, unless they're extremely lucky like when you find two matching cards right next to each other and are filled with surprise and excitement, they have to search for them. They have to find their missing puzzle piece. You have to immerse yourself into the crowd of colors before you mix with one and become united. And the color you make together, when you are intertwined, when you are making love is the perfect shade of passion. You have been matched up and paired because truly you are one in the same and when you mesh into one, your puzzle is complete. It's beautiful how this world works so in sync with a lot of things, like it's meant to be a certain way. But sometimes people are ignorant and blinded and don't see that the puzzle piece that they've been missing is right in front of them. Sometimes you don't have to search for it because it's already found you. Sometimes the answers we seek in life to pair up with our questions are more evident than we had thought. But people spend so much time searching through crowds of people, sifting through them, and the magnet to their soul has been in their life this whole time. Nothing else could click correctly. Once a perfectly molded piece has fit into the hole, anything else would be too big or too small. Anything different would disrupt that perfect equilibrium. You can't water a flower too little or too much. The harmony that your union creates is amazing and everything feels right. And when we made love, our bodies fit perfectly together and when we held hands and our fingers intertwined it felt so right... Of course anger can separate, it can destroy the puzzle and all of the progress and set the pieces apart. Perhaps never to be put back together again. And sometimes those puzzle pieces get lost and even though you search and search for them, they are gone. It's truly a tragedy. Or people seem to skew and mangle the puzzle pieces so much that they don't even fit together anymore, they have come to all of these conclusions that the relationship isn't working because what first brought them together and how they clicked so perfectly after the years with all the fights and disagreements the puzzle pieces get bent. And people don't know how to make them fit together again, like they did in the beginning and sometimes innocence works better than knowledge. Because with the innocence of a new relationship, before the harsh realities of life hit you and you go through the trials and tribulations of being in a relationship, you find out that it's much harder to connect the pieces than you thought it was in the beginning. They may be right there in front of you, but to put them all together; it could take years to complete the puzzle. And sometimes the puzzle is left unfinished... I feel that the greatest joy in life is finding the missing piece to your love, the one who fills that spot like nothing else can no matter how much you try to bend and contort other pieces to fit like the original, it will never be the same. It can't be replaced. So then you give up and throw the puzzle away and live your life with mismatched puzzle pieces. Connect love happiness and success to your puzzle, each puzzle piece fulfills something. It helps paint the picture, you can't leave the bottom half of a canvas empty or it will look like it's missing something. Or maybe it's just white space that has been left undecided; it represents indecision and the unknown. Because sometimes there is that doubt in life, before the path is completely illuminated and you can see clearly. Someday, hopefully you will....

I keep hoping it's you, but it never is....

Every time I get a glint of hope, when I hear a knock at the door or when I get a new message, it's never you.... When you're in my dreams at night and it seems so real and then I wake up and you're not there... I can try not to care, but I know I always will.... There's no denying a love like this..... I wish you didn't put me in state of such bliss.. I wish I didn't feel like I was flying every time we kissed... My body would get so ecstatic just feeling you near me, you were like an adrenaline rush.... Your presence made me high...

What once was, but never will be again...

Something you loved so deeply and couldn't imagine living without.. The thought of ever losing them was too hard to fathom.. So you became fearful and it resulted in being a bit too protective... You didn't want to confine them, but you couldn't truly confide in them... They had hurt you various times before and you feared them walking out on you anytime you fought or would slip up and fall and they wouldn't be there to catch you, only to criticize and degrade, and I knew that my time was running out with you.. But I didn't want to submit to that premonition... You had displayed all the signs of future failure to me, yet I continued to hold on with every last bit of hope because I knew that if we both worked together we could make it through... You were still lost though, in a sea of despair. And I can relate to that because I've been in that dark place before... I tried so hard to save you, to save this; and I know it's not my responsibility, but I made it my priority. Because I love you and cherish you and value and appreciate everything you are and can be and your remarkable exceptional singular beauty. I want you and only you, because there's only one of you. And I want you to love yourself too because I think what's hurt me the most out of all of this is hearing you say that you hate yourself... And that's me being the naturally selfless person I am, the girl you bash and doubt so much; I'm the one who puts you before me and instead of sitting here feeling sorry for myself and how you mistreated me, I continue to love and worry for you. And those nights I cry, I cry for you and the love we lost.. I cry because I feel like I failed and it's the worst fucking feeling when you let the one person you love down........ I should've payed more attention to that invisible clock that was ticking down; I should've acted quicker. But sometimes even if you put all the effort in that you can, life doesn't accommodate to you as quickly as you'd like it to. Sometimes it's the situations that you're in that can't be helped. So here I am with all of this potential, yet possibility is procrastinating on me. And I am partly to blame because of my tendency to get distracted and procrastinate. That is a demon I still need to destroy... We are all human in that sense though.. These things affect all of us... It's those that know how to handle it properly that rise above it... And that's what we needed to do. And that's what we were in the process of doing; you can't just disregard it because it was stagnating. You have to acknowledge that little progress is still progress.. We were taking baby steps, but we were still moving... And you blew up and blamed me for a lot of things; when the main culprit was yourself; the real discrepancy was your laziness and lack of dedication and perseverance. And those are vital essentials for success. But these are not ingrained qualities in you; it's not a permanent medical condition. The "differences" you labeled as irreconcilable were just things that needed to be dealt with better; you passing them off as irreconcilable only portrayed your laziness more. Because our fights and our ideas and goals and our protectiveness, those were things we had talked about and it was clear that we wanted to do what was right and we both are willing and capable. We always emphasized on focusing on reality and doing the right thing; the most effective thing; we wanted to reap the best rewards out of life. We just wanted to be happy.... And I know that with all this external shit aside that took a toll on our relationship because of the way we dealt with it and how we became protective of each other to a point where we made the other person feel restricted and we were sensitive of each other and it would cause more fights, with all of that aside I know that at the end of the day just being able to lay next to you in bed and hold you made me the happiest........... And that's what's truly important.... It makes me so sad because we were putting in effort and we wanted to do all of these wonderful things and we had all this potential and our love was fucking incredible.. And I had to watch it all wither away and die as I stood there with all the love and willingness possible yet there was nothing I could do because I can't do this without you... I guess it's just a life lesson that anything you ever love on this earth will someday be taken away from you. Happiness comes in small doses... Enjoy them. You don't know when one of them could be your last.... If I would've known the last time I kissed you and we made love would be our last, I would've made love to you so passionately... I would've left a lingering feeling of ecstasy so I would've had one last memory of euphoria to immerse myself in when I'm missing you.... Yet my last contact with you was a cold hug that I gave to you as you stood there limp and unresponsive; it was like hugging a dummy... I should've known by then how dead and gone you were to me... That last meeting was like the funeral to our relationship... However, although that bond is gone, this love will never die. You have that absolute in me and when you learn to appreciate and value, when you take off the blindfold completely, someday you will realize and regret.... And you will ask yourself, was this relationship really all that bad, or was it just me? After all, a relationship is only successful if you make it. And where there's a will there's a way. So before coming to the conclusion that you were ending this over "irreconcilable differences", stop living in denial and admit that it was just you that wasn't capable or willing to make anything successful... Reconciliation is within capability... Unfortunately, I don't think you are within reach.... And so I must let go and move on... Sometimes you have no choice in life....

The girl I love doesn't even understand who I am....

When the one you love tells you that they're leaving you because of 'irreconcilable differences' when you both agree and get along so well for the most part. And you have such a wonderful connection and so much chemistry that seems to be ignored in the heat of the moment. You just have really silly fights that blow out of proportion sometimes. And the funny thing is that you both agree on everything because the conversations are logical and factual, yet you instigate fights by cutting each other off or some kind of immature behavior. When they leave and give that reason, even though the appropriate solution would've been to avoid fights by communicating more calmly and effectively. Yet they just deem it as a lost hope, when they're the hopeless ones not caring to put in the effort to diffuse these unnecessary situations. And then they settle on the conclusion that it's just you as a person they can't deal with because they correlate all of the bullshit to your character. "These shitty things happen so it must be this person." How about: shit happens (inevitably) and you learn to deal with in the best ways possible by doing the right thing because you are both intelligent capable human beings? Laziness should be the real discrepancy here. "I don't like the way you think and act, you have terrible worldviews." This is quite a bold statement to make, when the reason we argued was because of lack of effective communication which is cause for misunderstandings which leads to misconceptions of people. You never really understood who I was, unfortunately. I mean, you may have had an idea; but certainly not any deep understanding. And things you bashed me about only verified that. Like "You think all celebrities have plastic surgery." Huge indicator. Just making that statement on its own sounds ignorant. Like fuck, did you really think that poorly of me? To believe I would think in such silly ways? This honestly makes me laugh because it shows me how truly little you analyzed/considered what I told you; how little you truly listened to what I had to say. Yes, celebrities are notoriously fake. That is what the whole industry is based on. What I mainly emphasized on was the synthetic aspect, which isn't only plastic surgery. And no, not all celebrities have work done on them obviously. It's not a requirement, just an option I guess you could say. It makes me really sad that you would make such accusations of me, when you should know me better. You bash me and say "Daisy you think you are the only one who thinks of all these things. Congratulations for thinking of all of these fabulous ways around the system." Another fucking misconception and why effective communication really needed to be emphasized on. There was definitely capability; this relationship had so much potential. Before you make such blinded accusations, analyze what I tell you thoroughly and the references I make to successful people who have done the things I hope to achieve. Like authors and scientists. That right there makes your statement of me look so dismissive. So here I am trying to salvage my character, while you continue to bash me with false accusations of the person you have made me out to be. And you think I'm so opposed to education when I educate myself on a daily basis with all sorts of reputable sources (books, professional blogs, documentaries). Two of the things I spend most of my time doing are reading and writing. I love knowledge; I love the facts. And you should at least know that about me. I am a very logical person and I have always been from a very young age. Teachers had wanted to put me in advanced programs all throughout my school life. They had told my father "This girl is very special and she exceeds the student standards. She needs to excel in a different environment more appropriate for her high level of intelligence and rapid learning pace." And this is why eventually I switched to home school where I could exert my independence and learning skills more adequately without being restrained to a classroom where I had to go at the teacher's pace. I was very pleased with that and seemed to get a lot more work done. The amount of time I could be confined to a classroom listening to a teacher read from a textbook or show me how to solve a math problem, I could just as easily pick it up on my own or watch a video on it and overall just save much more time. It all seems a bit wasteful to me, but that's just because I am a person who values time and efficiency. What you don't realize is that the same professors who are teaching you out of a textbook, could just as easily be the professors teaching you on a video or perhaps they wrote a book on their expertise on a certain subject and you read it. Knowledge is not limited to a school environment. School is more of a requirement for certain careers that need some sort of evidence that you are proficient in a field of expertise and it's not always higher pay. As a matter of fact, with so many students in debt, it can prove to be more financially draining in the long run. So, no I'm not opposed to going to school; I just acknowledge the different ways around it and would like to waste as little time/money as possible. Wouldn't we all? After all, that in itself is intelligence.

Honestly, I think the reason people misunderstand me so much is because I am so different.. And people see my ideas as dumb and silly because they stray so far from the typical... I have been described as ambitious my whole life... However, I'm very realistic and it balances out well in the end.

I am Daisy Jamie Domian and I deserve to at least be acknowledged properly. If you made the effort to know me, at least really get to know who I am before you walk away "forever" and give all these bullshit reasons that really just sum up to be your laziness and ignorance. Thank you.

Butterflies and Memories~

~Butterflies and memories... They drift away with the breeze.... Their beauty lingers in your dreams.... Don’t make something yours that you can’t keep... That happiness is only but a passing moment in time... Not a moment to live in forever.... If only time could stop, then I would make you stay with me and we wouldn’t have to leave ever.... Now like a butterfly, I must take flight... Let me be free, you’ll never catch me.... I was never meant to be caged... I don’t have a home, only places I have lived in... Stories to tell.... I am a traveler... You don't seem to know who I really am... I don’t belong in any one place... And yet no matter how much I try to move on from you, those memories I can’t erase.... And I always dream of your face... I miss you and I wish you could’ve been the one to make me stay... But you never did.... And now I must be on my way...~ Goodbye, goodbye.. Dear loved one... For you I will always cry....

Calm, Contained, and Rational.

~I thrive on knowledge. I love every bit and part of attaining and distributing it. It makes me feel accomplished and worthy. I always strive to do what's best, because I can. If you focus on reality and doing what's right, you can reap the best rewards out of life. This may all sound redundant, but to me they are virtues that need to be emphasized on. And you must remain calm when making any rational decision. You must analyze every option thoroughly before deciding on an appropriate solution. Any kind of extreme emotion, like anger, would cause your decision-making to be a bit hasty. Remain as calm and contained as possible and rationality will come your way. Use the knowledge in the world around you to live your life in uppermost harmony. Peace and love are the basis for happiness. You can incorporate them into your life by executing the proper steps; stay calm and be smart. Mindfulness is the opposite of ignorance.~